The problem with Wolverine

Something random, I still cannot get over the fact that Wolverine is so highly appreciated and emphasized in the X Men series. Seriously, what's so good about him that's worth so much focus on his past and future? I'd rather they created a spin off on Storm or Jean or Cyclops... Now that would be more exciting to witness ...

Heh, I'm a fan of X-Men since young alright, just that I'm rather biased against Wolverine cause I remember as a small boy thinking Wolverine was really cocky and annoying with the way he was portrayed in the series...

Then again, I don't really mind the movie cause Hugh Jackman's playing the annoying character and we all know what an awesome actor he is :)

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[Tyqa]
Yes you can still try to mat-tify me after your exams. It'll be a hard task man! HAHA! Thanks and yes I am having fun in camp now :)

[Vivian]
Hey there! Yes time passes really fast, and it really feels so fast I amazed at how much I have completed thus far. I'm fine, and you? Study hard for exams ya! All the best!

[Zhen Qin]
Exactly my point! Weekends should be used for activities, not to rest the eyes. That can be done in camp. LOL!

[Kenji]
Yeap I was referring to Mad World. Adam's version is on repeat for my Mp3, and its been a week now and I never get sick of that song. Its really beautifully sung! :) Gary Jules' version was really good too actually! hahah...

[Beverly]
HEY! Haha yes NS is getting better, thanks! Keep the tags coming!

[Cassandra]
LOL so I'm missed cause you need somebody to bully? >.<>

[Ness]
HEY! Yess its three more weeks to partial freedom. That way we dont have to end our convos abruptly anymore. It has happened alot these past few weeks eh? HAHA! I cant wait for it to end! And yeapp I think I remember telling you about that. Never mind we shall continue the next time we see each other online, and I am looking forward to that man! Chatting with Inessa is always a fun activity aint it? LOL!

[Judamouse]
No problem :) Thanks for tagging and dropping by! All the best for your exams ya?

[Fizul]
Archuleta is an awesome singer man! You should listen to the lyrics and the way he sings them. Its really soothing to the ears. Haha.. and eh Aliff is no where close to Archuleta in my opinion so they should not be compared together la! LOL!

[Ain]
Alamak, haruskah saya anggapkan kata-kata anda itu sebagai pujian atau sebaliknya? LOL! >.<>

[Nawa]
HEY! Alright I'll relink. And YES he should not be in the bottom two. No no no! He must win, heh!

[Dina]
Agreed! Yeapp I do miss my students calling me that, although now I have a totally different group of people calling me that. Hehh.. And yeap, MAY IS HERE! And that means two things. One, I'm 20 days away from ending my life as a recruit. Two, our meet up should happen sooon! hehe.. Two great events to look forward to :)

WELCOME BACK GREENDAY

After a very very very long break of about 4 years I guess, they are finally alive and kicking with their brand new album! Greenday has been one band I have envied since young apart from simple plan. Even till today I STILL love some of their songs, so I am really excited to see how this new album turns out!

I heard this new album has a very different concept, away from the pop punk roots they once had to the genre of classical rock. Sounds rather interesting, so I'm hoping some of their songs will be as good and impactful as Holiday and Boulevard of Broken Dreams, two of my favourite songs by Greenday.

15 May, we will all find out

Greenday fans, rejoice!

The Backdated Teaching Entry

Alright this post has been backdated for a VERY long time now, and now that the emotions come running back to me, its about time I finish up this post and post it for everybody to read, finally...

Its been close to two months now, two months since I left Teck Whye Secondary school. Two months might seem a long time, but trust me, when you leave something you love doing alot, it really seems only like yesterday that you stopped.

Every time I feel overwhelming emotions overcoming me in camp, be it sad, annoying or any other feeling, I can't help but view photos of my acquaintances and teaching days so as to keep me calm and settled..

It might seem funny, but the image and personality of the teacher in me has never really left me since I stopped. In school, I used to have this professional teacher image whose students addressed him as Mr Zul or Sir. I thought all these qualities of a teacher in me would leave the moment I stopped teaching but well my friends, I actually brought them into camp.

Just for your information, in camp I am quite a well known guy. LOL! Seriously, not notoriously thank god. I never actually did anything to make myself stand out, but somehow my platoon mates and instructors found out about my background as a teacher and they never fail to be interested in my teaching adventures and they'll always make me tell them about my job as a teacher. Hence this story spread round and the ENTIRE company of 160 people or so now knows, even the people I don't know. Having people you don't know approaching you for your experiences is quite an honour, and I found this a really good opportunity to open up and start making new friends.

Its really weird, yet after almost five weeks I have finally come to accept the fact that the guy in camp goes by the persona of the Cikgu and not this boy called Zulhafiz. Trust me, there are some who don't even know my name thanks to this prevailing nickname... haha!

Well I'll elaborate this more in my future posts... Okay back to my teaching experiences, I must say that I really am beginning to miss my teaching days.

Dina's entry on her last day made me reflect and reminisce upon the good old days I had with my students.

I remember the very last day I had with my students was a really bitter sweet experience. On one hand I really felt so very satisfied and proud of my students cause my very last day was what made me realize the impact I had on them. Eight weeks worth of teaching, I saw all the reaps of success on that very day, and seeing how much my students have grown since the very first day I took them for lessons, it just made me all the more happier for these students who have pride and passion for all that they do.

I remember my very last lesson with Class 3J, the video I showed the class and the cards I gave them which made them tear. I admit, seeing the tears come out from the girls and even the guys touched me up to the point I could not talk, cause I swear, if I were to say something, I would end up with tears welling up in my very own eyes. It was that emotional.

I also remember the many pictures I took with my students to prepare me for my last day as well as for my NS days.. Yes, those were the days.

Words cannot express how much I miss these little students of mine, those who made me mad yet apologetic with their innocent "I wont do it again" faces, those who made me smile, those who teased me with my height and age, those who were really close to me, I really want to relive those days.

I guess I'll let the pictures do the talking! :)









All these were taken on my last day, with many many more in facebook so you can go see if you want to. And this sums up my last day of teaching entry, the entry I never got to complete due to NS nervousness issues at one point in time...

The memories may have been long present
But not even time can take them away from me

It's four more weeks to the end of my recruit life!

Freedom is in the air. Can you smell it? Okay fine, not total freedom, but well at least it is partial freedom to be able to go home everyday after these four weeks end. Nobody to confine us, threaten us, order us around all the way.

Yes, I'm looking forward to that..

Its 12.53 am. I should be sleeping now but I'm not. Well, not cause I want to stay up late. Its more of because I can stay up late.

Makes sense?

IT'S A MAD MAD WORLD

Let's face it, Adam Lambert is an awesome person. If you haven't already known who this guy is, you have obviously been away from the face of this Earth and you should definitely check him out. For someone who has not been watching American Idol at all to like this guy, it certainly speaks volumes about how good he really is.

I love songs, yet I never really get blown away that easily unless a singer sings really well and manages to infuse his own emotions into a song. He doesn't need to try to do so, cause if it's there, then it's there. Somehow though, this one song sang by Adam Lambert during one of the performance absolutely blew me away beyond words. I heard this song on radio whilst in camp and I was immediately captivated by it, immediately wondering what the title of the song was and who the singer was. A stunning take on a song so beautifully written, and personally if I were Simon I too would have given him a standing ovation. Take a listen and soothe your souls my friends!

Mad World (Cover By Tears For Fears)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

This may be based upon feelings of children but if you were to analyse it closely, this really is not too far from the harsh reality we all feel from time to time. As humans it is only normal for us to desire attention and love, yet sometimes we just do not get what we want. We feel left out, we feel alone when we try to fit in. We try to seek someone to speak to and hear us out but there's nobody, nobody, that would fulfill our need.

The human species can indeed be an irony come to think of it. We know what we want and yearn for, basic human rights and emotions, yet we are ignorant enough to understand the basic human rights and emotions of others.

Are we all not humans?

Since when has life been a bed of roses? It has never ceased to be thorny to me at least and sometimes I feel life can be rather unfair on us.

Just a month ago, I had to deal with separation, which to most of us is never an easy thing. NS was calling me, and I had no choice but to leave my students and teaching colleagues to settle for life in Civil Defence for 2 years. 2 solid months teaching these young individuals waiting to blossom into useful people of society, and I already developed a strong relationship with these bright kids. What not, I was known as a teacher by name, but here the fact was that I was just a mere few years older than them. I was more of an older brother to them all, and I could relate to them, their needs and their wants as I was of a similar age group. Just as this relationship started to strengthen, it had to be taken away from me due to my NS commitments. It was really hard on me, but finally I learnt to let go.

NS was tough as well, not so much physically, but more of the mental aspect. Everything I once had was taken away from me, and every single book in was dreadful for me. I thought I never would make friends and I'd be alone, but these five weeks proved me wrong as I made some really awesome friends who stuck by me through thick and thin. They took care of me when I was sick, made sure I was able to sleep through the night soundly, stood up for me when others tried to tease or take advantage of my weaknesses and many others. They made me feel like life in NS was worth it.

Now comes the hard part, as these people were selected for the firefighter course. I had the opportunity, but due to personal reasons I had to reject this offer. Now, as I book in, I'm all alone without these familiar faces I once knew. All I'm left with are the rest of the platoon with characters that can be rather undesirable and not really that I am comfortable with.

Just as I was about to love my NS life, this has to happen. I can jolly well break down and sulk, but I firmly believe there has to be an explanation for everything that happens in life. I am going to stay strong, and I hope to be able to adapt to this new life I'm going to experience starting tonight. Wish me luck.

Whatever that doesn't kill you makes you stronger