Weekends now are like gold. I feel really lethargic during the weekends and if I were to follow what I just want to do most, it would be to rest till I feel satisfied without having anything to do. Then again, think about it, 48 hours of freedom a week. Is it worth it using the time to sleep when it should be used interacting with friends, using the internet and catching up on family members?

Speaking of which, I spent my time in camp reading and writing stuff during my free times so as to slow down the rate of decomposition of my brain. Trust me, in camp, you do stuff that require only physical strength and almost no mental strength unless you're talking about the stress felt by being away from your loved ones.

If this continues, my brain will soon malfunction and no way am I goinna let that happen. Thus I wrote poems with themes that inspire me at that certain point of time.

Enjoy!

Closeted and lonely, I'm feeling it both
My mouth's sewn shut, held by an oath
My soul's trapped in, cuffed by a pact
Yes I hate this life, it's a well known fact

I live in a room, but it feels like a cell
My life here reciprocates that of hell
24 months of a routined life, its simply abhorring
Compared to this, trust me, school's really not that boring

A life of regimentation, with screams here and there
Punishments aloof, with no one to spare
There's no room for mistakes, try if you dare
You can wail, you can cry, but they just won't care

The situation worsens being away from your loved ones
Just think of them, and you'll get homesick at once
You'll spend your time counting down to Friday
Yet time passes by so slow, it seems so far away

Well I could rant on and let my imagination loose
Yet I've got 2 choices, which should I choose?
Follow the heart, express emotions of disgust
Or follow the brain, take things easy and adapt fast

I'm the wolf covered in the clothing of a sheep
I'm an alligator hiding underneath still waters
I'm your paradox and irony in Shakespearan lingo
Now don't you try messing around with me

I might seem weak but I'm not giving it my all
I might seem dumb but I'm a geek in disguise
Now don't you seemingly judge a book by its cover
Cause if you do, then you'll be surprised

I'll take the chance and pounce on you to gobble up your ego
I'll tiptoe quietly behind you and swallow up your pride
I'll creep mysteriously around you and I'll meddle with your mind
I am an illusion, I'm the shadow of the night

I've had enough of being labelled
I hate to be looked down upon
Now just you wait, I'm goinna show you what I've got
Sun down, I'll let you meet my alter ego

Cause I'll take the chance and pounce on you to gobble up your ego
I'll tiptoe quietly behind you and swallow up your pride
I'll creep mysteriously around you and I'll meddle with your mind
I am an illusion, I'm the shadow of the night

Darkness fall, you'll hear my call
I'm the shadow of the night

I used to be an angel
Where purity surrounds me
My face so sweet, my life so pure
I never thought I would go wrong

Fate landed you upon my eyes
And I felt the need to make you mine
I wanted you, I needed you
That's when I tried to change my ways

So give me a way to turn back time
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Stringed and played, all my actions are controlled
Somebody help me please, before I fall deeper

Rings I used to have, but I now have horns
Wings I used to fly, its replaced by dragon scales
I changed for you, it's all your fault
My life took a downhill turn, then I got lost

So give me a way to turn back time
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Stringed and played, all my actions are controlled
Somebody help me please, before I fall deeper

Pull me out, free me please
Before I fall deeper

GPA 2009

GPA last Saturday was indeed a blast, and I must say I was really impressed with the way with the way the MLCS members handled the entire event. I saw the tremendous effort and hard work put in by them as well as those who have graduated and I must say, all these efforts really paid off :)

A picture speaks a thousand words, and I'm too tired out to describe the entire process of it all, so let the pictures speak 100000000 words then =)

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The make up artistes for the day getting all busy to make their dancers look lawa on stage :)

MLCS seniors catching up. Take a look at their hilarious faces =P

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They're telling us their aim for their GP grades. Haha okay lame, they're proud of the GPA letters they made :)

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The new J1s all energized to start their kompang session to welcome the VIP

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Khairi.. This guy rocks at silat man! First time I saw him, I knew he seemed really familiar. He turned out to my one of my religious school classmates! HAHA!

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Finally, the four of us have our very own picture together. YAY!

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The batch of MLCS 07/08 , some of us at least!

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Mardhiah Deena and I ... Lovely seniors of mine!

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Shahidah! Wahh that day this girl was acting like a mak tiri to me you know. Tak habis habis marah marah budak NS ni.. HAHA! =P Kasi lah chance sikit, must be nice to NS boys you know! =) It was lovely seeing her after SO long!

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Ain the MLCS president! First photo with her, first chat with her, first time discovering who this lady really is. No wonder her friends call her MAK! I totally can relate :)

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Zulhafiz, his cousin's cousin, and the extra whose not part of the family tree! LOL! Alright I was kidding, I love these people ...

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Me and my juniors, Farid and Azizan! Here's a coincidental fact, one was my brother's kindergarden friend and the other was his primary school friend =X And for the record, yes Deena, I think Azizan does look abit like Eddy! HAHA!

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HUDAA!!! Gosh I missed this girl alot, reminds me of the times we spent together during the Indon trip days with nothing much to worry about.. We still need to catch up soon, you were sooo busy that day!

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Lyana! The other one I missed. At least I did manage to disturb her on a few attempts. She's another one whom I spent alot of time with during the Indo trip. We sat next to each other, of course I'll miss this little girl. HAHA! =P

The gang eating at Swensons. This one's specially for Iliyas cause he doesnt appear below..

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And this one's specially for DINA cause she doesnt appear above! HAHA! Her absence in the previous picture stirred up alot of humour and controversy amongst the people who went! Well maybe this is the camera's way of getting revenge on you for cheating on us, telling us you couldnt go cause you needed to go home to FEED YOUR CAT! HAHA!

And to top it all off, I went for COUNCIL CAMPFIRE! didnt get to take pictures cause I was already too sick and needed to go home, but it was an awesome campfire!

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Indeed spending time with your loved ones is what makes you go on with life no matter how tough it may be. Its ironic that I love spending time with this group of people. I remembered back then during my very first few weeks of my JC days, the moment I found out I was an automatic member of MLCS, I was absolutely upset about it. I had this thing against it cause of a past which Dina knows since we chatted about this before, right Dina? :) Similar thoughts! heheh...

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Now that I think about it, I realize this group of MLCS students are really very different and they have redefined the very definition of the word 'love' They make me happy, and I feel really honoured to be surrounded by such people. So far, I've known 4 batches of MLCS people, with the batch having Ain as the president as the first, and I must say all four batches have something in common, which is the value of love and bondedness.

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Just one week ago I saw them, but I'm already beginning to miss these people!

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Hope to see you guys really soon! :)

I had fun during GPA, and I guess that update will come next week! Thank you friends, and I had fun during council campfire as well. Booking in now! See you guys!

When you feel that something you're going through is absolutely pointless, would you still give it your best shot?

TREASURING

You'll only start treasuring something once you've lost it

Many at times in camp, during my free time, I'll ponder over this fact alot. There are many things all of us take for granted, for example friends, family and the luxury of items all of us hold. As wicked as this statement might seem, lets all face it. Its the truth for all, if not most of us here.

How many of us here actually acknowledge the fact that we have families to go back to once we return home from school or work? We take our homes for accommodation grounds and we just go home to sleep and do our own stuff. Our parents will always be there to welcome us with a warm smile, a cup of Milo or even some snacks for us to consume knowing we are exhausted after a day packed with activities yet do we thank them for their kind efforts?

How many of us here actually acknowledge the presence of our siblings at home? When we come home, we will most likely be so exhausted we will not even bother to interact with our own siblings although we live under the same roof. We see them as just another member of the family, yet we do not realize that perhaps they feel neglected as we make no attempt to show our love and concern for them.

How many of us here treasure this thing called freedom? We often take it for granted that we can do anything we like at our own risk without consequences. Freedom is too easily granted to us nowadays that we see it as something common and if not given freedom, I'm pretty sure most of us here would voice out our unhappiness and resort to the idea of expressing the issue of "human rights" as we put it.

Well NS can be such a pest, irritant or sore but I'm trying to think positive of it. At least it makes us think and mature mentally in terms of the way we perceive things. Before entering NS, most guys will be rather narrow minded in terms of the way they think of the people and issues surrounding them but I'm sure with these 2 years, we all all mature and progress.

Well isnt that the case?